Trust me on this one, I have a really good reason for not posting. As in- I'm not in Florida anymore. I haven't been for I think over a month now. And it's hard to write this post because I feel like I'm letting all 54 of you down. But I really had to think about what was best for me in this case, so here I sit in pollen-infested Georgia. (Seriously, our pollen count is out of control.)
I feel like I should explain why I left, especially because I don't want all of the future CPs to freak out. :) The CP is awesome and you're going to love it. It's going to be hard sometimes and it's going to suck sometimes because that's how life is, but you're going to have the time of your life.
Leaving was literally one of the hardest things I have ever had to do in my entire life. I really enjoyed my time there and I haven't had a day go by that I haven't felt sad that I had to leave. Self-terming isn't exactly going out in a blaze of glory and it doesn't bode well for ever wanting to work for the company again. On top of that, I was building some pretty awesome relationships with awesome people and I miss them terribly. So if I feel like this, why did I leave? Because despite all of that, I still needed to leave. I have a lot of underlying personal issues. I've been through a lot in my life and I haven't dealt with any of it at any point. It's been storing up, dragging me down, and interfering with my quality of life.
I'm now at home working for ChaCha still, waiting to work at camp this summer (my favorite place on the planet), and going to counseling. It's the best I've felt in a long time. And while I'm sad that I'm not in Florida (frequently) I don't regret my decision. I wouldn't be able to be on the path to healing that I'm on now, and I wouldn't trade that.
Thanks to all of you for sharing in my Disney journey with me. If you'd like to continue on with me in my not-so-Disney journey, I have a non-Disney blog that was deleted but that I've decided to bring back. You can find it here.
I don't expect everyone to understand why I had to leave, but I hope you can at least respect it. :)
What's next? Camp. Job. School of some kind (culinary? medical?). Maybe I'll just go ahead and become the next president or something.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog and supporting me. I love you all.
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i don't think i've commented much here at all, but i definitely respect your decision. i'm sad to see that you left but i admire you for being able to make that decision and do what's right for you. :]
ReplyDeleteI've been wondering what happened since I have you on facebook and noticed you weren't in Florida anymore. I'm sorry you decided to leave and I hope you made the right decision for you! Good luck in life. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry that we weren't able to hang out at Disney World, but good luck in your future endeavors. If you get a free weekend, come on down and visit us sometimes...this post came up and hour ago and already you have three comments, that counts for something I guess.
ReplyDeleteIt's too bad that you weren't able to stay in Florida for the entire program, but I'm glad that you did what felt best for you! That is what is most important! And I am glad that you feel you are on the right path now. :) Best of luck to you in the future!
ReplyDeleteTake care,
Anna
P.S. I'm from GA too, and that pollen was CRAZY!!
I haven't been checking up on blogs lately because...
ReplyDeleteI quit the CP too.
How ironic is that?
It's pretty much like you said- personal issues. Orlando is a hard city to live in, especially by yourself and without the support from your loved ones and family. If you wanna talk let me know, or send me a message on facebook, because I think our situations sound a lot alike.
I definitely understand where you're coming- maybe not the exact situation, but I know how hard of a decision it is, especially when there are personal issues involved. Doing what is best *for you* is the most important, and for our friends and co-workers, maybe even family, it's hard to understand that without knowing what we're going through.
I most definitely respect your decision and admire you for making it. It's a big step and a lot harder than most people think. Sometimes life just doesn't turn out how we expect it to, but it has to be our mission to point ourselves in the right, healthy, paths for each of us.
Like I said, if you wanna talk or keep in touch, just facebook me, and I'll have to check out your non-Disney blog!